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When I first started my little Vox blog, I had originally planned on talking about weight loss, Weight Watchers and my struggles to get back down to my goal weight.

As time as gone by, it's become more of a place to sit and bitch and moan and vent about life and everything that's going on.

However, as I was walking last night (in my pathetic attempt to "train" for the AIDS walk), I realized that my original purpose here had been erased and life had taken over. Now, while that's all fine and dandy in the real world, my own little parcel of cyberworld could (and should) be whatever I want it to be.

While I don't plan on turning this into a weight-related blog *only* I would like to bring that aspect of my life back here. I feel like there is nobody keeping me accountable anymore. I don't pay for Weight Watchers meetings, I do it online. If I have a bad week with a big gain, I tend to not post my weight until I feel more comfortable. And why? So the little :| face that comes on when you post a gain won't stare at me condescendingly?

I have no plans on telling any of you what I weigh. I will tell you this though. This morning I weighed in at 20 pounds over my original goal weight. I've decided that I would like to lose 10 pounds between now and Thanksgiving. I'll try and post everyday what I've been eating, my activity, and my weekly weight loss....or gain.

I have to realize that I can only let the shit that goes on in my life affect me so much. At some point I have to put the kabbosh on the outside controlling what goes on inside me. I have to start taking better care of myself. I'm always on Aaron's ass about doing it. Maybe if I practice what I preach he'll take heed and will get back on the health wagon.

Okay. Now I have to stop kvetching here and go finish my research paper. Here's today's 411.

Morning: fruit, low-fat yogurt, ice blended together for a tasty smoothie drink. (1pt)
Snack: 100-calorie pack of Chips Ahoy! (2pts)
Lunch: Chicken and rice (7.5 pts)
Snack: Tortilla chips (3 pts)
Dinner: Whole wheat pasta, homemade spaghetti sauce (tomatoes, onions, garlic, parsley), and 3 Trader Joe's turkey meatballs: (7 points total and SUPER filling)
AP: 50 minutes brisk walking, and a lesiure walk with Dodger here in a minute (3+AP's)

Today's target points: 22
Total food pts: 22.5
AP: 3

I walked tonight to the new Foo Fighters album, "echoes, silence, patience and grace." It's a pretty amazing album. I'm sure you've heard "The Pretender" on the radio, but "Let it Die" and "Home" are awesome songs. "Home" makes me want to cry--but in a really good, I've been moved by music kind of way. Check it out if they're your kind of music.

slash this morning when I was driving home at 4 in the morning from Korean kareoke. I was almost stupid. Almost, but not quite.

Resolve by the Foo Fighters

1-08 Resolve

Foo Fighters

Something that I felt today, something that I had
Swingin' from the chandoleres, hanging on your word
I remember watchin' you once upon a time
Dancing from across the room in another life

A little bit of resolve is what I need now
Pin me down, show me how
A little bit of resolve is what I need now
Pin me down, show me how

Lookin' back to find my way, never sing so hard
Yesterday's been laid rest, changing of the gods
I would never change a thing even if I could
All the songs we used to sing, everything was gone

A little bit of resolve is what I need now
Pin me down, show me how
A little bit of resolve is what I need now
Pin me down, show me how

One more louvre that you're not here
It's gone and passed you by
Happened to you, happened to you
One more tear that you won't hear
That's gone and passed you by
Happened to you, happened to you

A little bit of resolve is what I need now
Pin me down, show me how
A little bit of resolve is what I need now
Pin me down, show me how

A little bit of resolve
One more louvre that you're not here
It's gone and passed you by (A little bit of resolve)
A little bit of resolve
One more louvre that you're not here
It's gone and passed you by (A little bit of resolve)

Aaron had a doctor's appointment today to go over the scans that he had done last week. It appears that while the original two tumors that they discovered in August haven't grown all that much, but there are two new spots that they discovered. One is below his diaphram on the left side, and one is where the pancreas head should be located (it was removed during the Whipple procedure he had in 2001).

I'm not really sure where I'm at right now. I have been in a healthy state of denial for the last six months--Aaron was feeling fine...the holistic stuff is going to work...It was easier than dealing with the reality of the situation. But today it hit me. Tonight we were sitting in the computer room and Aaron was talking to his mom, and she was bringing up something on the other side that I didn't hear and he hung up in tears. We had a cry together and I said some things to him that I've always felt but never said aloud. It meant a lot for me to say it and a lot for him to hear.

So let me take this chance to remind you of this:
Tell the people you love that you love them.
Don't be afraid to be sad in front of somebody who is sick.
Remind the people you love of what they mean to you.

And here's a song that really symbolizes what I've been feeling lately. It's a good song by the Foo Fighters. Enjoy.

2-03 Miracle

Foo Fighters